The generation gap

OMG I am SO not in my 30s!! There is such a generation gap between them and me. I get caught in the middle because I had my second "set" of kids in my 40s, so now I am surrounded by 30-something first time moms that are SO ANNOYING!! Maybe it's the "first kid" syndrome they have, I don't know. But they just act so entitled. For example, this morning was the first swim lesson for my 6 year old son at the community pool. So I show up early and walk over to the only neighbor I know - and again, get no acknowledgement from her that I exist. I don't even get a chance to get in a quick "hi" because she never stops talking to EVERYONE else at the pool - even waving to others on the other side. Okay....so I get live without that. No problem. Her daughter's class is finished, so she leaves and I gather with the other moms from the class. Well, actually, they gather. They all pull up chairs right next to the pool edge (which we were told not to do) and take pictures of their baby in the water, blah, blah, blah. A little overkill, I think, since the class hasn't even started. The moms waiting for the next class push their overloaded strollers into the baby pool enclosure and they all let their kids in the pool. Now, we all know the pool isn't open to the public at this early hour of the morning, so I wonder why they feel exempt from this rule while I keep my younger son out. I feel a little vindicated when the lifeguard does come over 5 minutes later and tells them to get out, but still....the whole attitude of "I'll do what I want until I'm told not to" just doesn't sit well with me.
Sometimes I feel bad I don't "gel" well with my neighbors, but then this kind of thing happens again and I understand myself and just figure that's the way it is going to be now that I'm an older mom. I just don't understand this younger generation :) lol

2Do before I die....am I done?

While reading the book "2Do Before I Die", I realized that all the stories about things "to be done" were written by 20- and 30-somethings. I struck me that these were kids - how could they know how it feels to be desperate to make sure you get everything done before you die. And then I realized I had done the same thing - when I was 32, I got out of my dead marriage and dead life. I bagged the whole thing and started living. I did some things that wreaked havoc on my life and my relationships, but when I look back now, I realized I was doing my "2Do" list back then. I 1) found the love of my life and waited for him to marry me, regardless of the cost, 2) flew to London at the spur of the moment just because I had to leave my life 3) sang karaoke with my girlfriend in a bar 4) took ballet lessons- again 5) resolved my feelings about my high school sweetheart 5) vacationed wherever I wanted, including Hawaii, the Bahamas, a cruise, St. Thomas, the mountains, the beach and a monastery 6) lost weight when I wanted 7) got married again before 40 and 8) had my sons, both after i turned 40.

What else is left? It seems like my list now is so small if you take away all the "repeat" things that I was to redo. I vacilate between feeling grateful that I did all those 2Do things and sadness that they are already done and I am past that point in my life. Or do I just need to figure out what those new things are? If I try to make a list now, I find myself just wanting to do (or be able to do) the things I did when I was younger that made me feel good. Not easy when I'm dealing with health battles that leave me feeling 80 and wishing for the retirement home. But I'll try, damn it, I'll try. I'll keep trying to make that list - and do that list - until I'm too tired to write, type or think. At least I hope so.