Okay, so now I know why they want old people and babies to get the flu vaccine. I get it. I'm old and I need it. Blech. I used to get these little winter gripes and have my fever for 24 hours, then be up and weak, but functioning. So today I'm working on day 7 and still hocking up stuff I won't gross you out by describing. Got the fever, the aches, the headache, blah blah blah....and I'm READY for it to be OVER, GOD!! Doesn't help that hubby and the boys (ages 4 and 5) were all stuck down as well. What a fun house we are this weekend - not :(
I guess this explains the infernal joint pain this morning - or was it from doing those modified Sun Salutations yesterday? Dang it, I will NOT have this much pain from those silly stretches. I am off right now to run another set....I will NOT AGE GRACEFULLY!
Monday, January 21, 2008
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Hot or not?
Can I be perimenopausal if I don't have any symptoms? I swear that I am ready - please, Lord, no more babies! - but the monthly marauder keeps visiting me as regular as clockwork. I have so many of the other symptoms - and God knows I feel about 80 - but the fertility clock just keeps on ticking. Can I buy out now? I'm ready! How can someone who feels so crickety be so fertile!?! God has GOT to be kidding if he sent me a baby now - although I was ready 5 years ago and, hence, my last baby joined our family much to my joy. But now??? Cripes...
I did my yoga stretches this morning as best I could. My old age version of the Sun Salutation. I remember so clearly when it seemed silly to have a whole range of asanas - I could do anything, my body could bend anyway and all the postures seemed easy and superfluous. At that point in my life, in my mid twenties with one child, a full time job and an unhappy marriage, the best part of yoga class was disappearing into the child pose or prone asana and let my tension disappear. I REMEMBER it so well....my body is no longer my own. I have creaky squeaky painful joints where I used to bend in half. Sigh. My body craves yoga. It subconsciously begs me for it. Why don't I do it regularly like I used to? Because it hurts. Because it's hard now. Silly, huh? When it was so easy, I did it daily for years and enjoyed it. Now that I NEED it and my body loves it (when I'm finished I feel 5 years younger), I put it off. Well, I am working to change that. Thanks to Flylady (at www.flylady.net), I've learned I can do anything for 15 minutes and if I attach it to a daily routine it will become part of my life, so I will find a way to add it for a few minutes in the morning and at night. I never thought I'd have a clean house, shiny sink, decluttered closet and actually do a morning and night skincare routine - and I do now - so I know I can do this. I know I can, I know I can, I know I can.....is it working yet? :)
I'll talk about the waist management issues later...ugh..but at least with that, I know it's very attainable. I've done it, I can do it, I will do it. It's just a matter of being ready. Holidays are always hard since Mom died. Every Christmas since she passed three years ago, I have eaten and shopped my way though the holidays and ended up with extra weight and clothes to start off each year. At least this year it was less. I love ya, Mom :)
I did my yoga stretches this morning as best I could. My old age version of the Sun Salutation. I remember so clearly when it seemed silly to have a whole range of asanas - I could do anything, my body could bend anyway and all the postures seemed easy and superfluous. At that point in my life, in my mid twenties with one child, a full time job and an unhappy marriage, the best part of yoga class was disappearing into the child pose or prone asana and let my tension disappear. I REMEMBER it so well....my body is no longer my own. I have creaky squeaky painful joints where I used to bend in half. Sigh. My body craves yoga. It subconsciously begs me for it. Why don't I do it regularly like I used to? Because it hurts. Because it's hard now. Silly, huh? When it was so easy, I did it daily for years and enjoyed it. Now that I NEED it and my body loves it (when I'm finished I feel 5 years younger), I put it off. Well, I am working to change that. Thanks to Flylady (at www.flylady.net), I've learned I can do anything for 15 minutes and if I attach it to a daily routine it will become part of my life, so I will find a way to add it for a few minutes in the morning and at night. I never thought I'd have a clean house, shiny sink, decluttered closet and actually do a morning and night skincare routine - and I do now - so I know I can do this. I know I can, I know I can, I know I can.....is it working yet? :)
I'll talk about the waist management issues later...ugh..but at least with that, I know it's very attainable. I've done it, I can do it, I will do it. It's just a matter of being ready. Holidays are always hard since Mom died. Every Christmas since she passed three years ago, I have eaten and shopped my way though the holidays and ended up with extra weight and clothes to start off each year. At least this year it was less. I love ya, Mom :)
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